June 19th, 2001

broken heart, sad, heart

Guess who's SeanAngsting?

I just finished another entry at my other journal. It is once again full of SeanAngst.

June 15th, 1999 was the first time we ever kissed, just for the record. In many ways, that night was end of who I used to be and the beginning of who I am now. I've been thinking about that a lot recently. There were some other important events that summer that I still think back to a lot, too. I re-read the first month's worth of entries from my old journal, and it reminded me of some many little things. I really miss him. He was someone I would have been happy to spend the rest of my life with, I think. But all of that's long over, except for my heart.

But I try to keep that kind of stuff in my other journal. I doubt that the people reading this really want to hear about Sean, since they don't even know him.

Dad and I finally got my new car stereo installed. I finally can listen to something besides AM radio, which will be nice. I need to decide which cds will live in my car. It's easy with tapes, since I don't really have a tape player in my room anymore, but my cds tend to want to live near the computer. I'll probably have to burn copies of some of them. I'm quite happy about the stereo. In-dash tape and cd for under $200, which is a damn good deal.

I don't seem to have anything interesting to say. Away I go.
  • Current Music
    They Might Be Giants - The End Of The Tour
studying, school, typing, writing, working

Still up. Go me.

I'm still up. I'm still thinking about Sean. My homework is untouched, and indeed I'm not quite certain what needs to be done, because I have not even looked at my notes. Hopefully, I will soon be tired enough to sleep despite thinking about Sean. With luck, if I start reading a simple book now (such as a Garfield comic collection or a Beverly Cleary book) I should be able to fall asleep by the time I finish it. Yay me.

And, now for your reading enjoyment, "Keepin' On Yearning" by Gordon Lightfoot:


Keepin' on smoking, Lord I keep on joking
Keepin' on moving around
Leaving everything behind until at last
I find what no one's ever found

Feeling kind of lonely on the telephone
Today I must keep moving on
Leaving everything I know I really need
And so I guess I'll move along

It doesn't matter if the sun don't shine
It doesn't matter if the rain don't fall
I could think about you all the time
Do you ever think of me at all

Keepin' on yearnin', keepin' on learnin'
Lord I keep turning it on
Leaving everything I know I really love
And so I guess I'll move along

It doesn't matter if the sun don't shine
It doesn't matter if the rain don't fall
I know I could make you mine
You know I wouldn't mind at all

Keepin' on smokin', gotta keep on joking
Gotta keep moving around
Leaving everything behind until at last
I find what no one's ever found

It doesn't matter if the sun don't shine
It doesn't matter if the rain don't fall
I could think about you all the time
Do you ever think of me at all

Keepin' on yearnin', gotta keep on learnin'
Gotta keep turning it on
Leaving everything I know I really love
And so I guess I'll move along

It doesn't matter if the sun don't shine
It doesn't matter if the rain don't fall
I know I could make you mine
You know I wouldn't mind at all
  • Current Music
    They Might Be Giants - Don't Let's Start